It's crazy to think that in just a few short weeks I will have finished my freshman year at college! I know right! I feel like it was just yesterday that I was writing on here about how nervous I was to enter in to this new phase in my life and now a year has passed. One thing that comes with college is the realization that you are growing up. Until now I have always felt like a kid. I mean I still do most of the time until I realize that I no longer have my mother nagging me (which she still loves to do...but with love! haha) or am under the strict schedules of others. I live my own live according to the rules I set for myself.
And this is scary. And by scary I mean absolutely terrifying! Growing up was something that I always dreamed about doing. Couldn't wait to get to high school, then college, and now I want time to freeze. Like we need to slow down because I am 19 finishing my first year in college and I swear yesterday I was awkward middle schooler.
The idea of getting jobs and learning to be on your own is becoming even more real. Not only am I stressing right now over finals in the next few months but also the fact that I have zero, nada, absolutely no plans for this summer. Everyone around me is talking about their great internships, summer jobs, or fabulous international trips they have planned. And here I am without a clue as to what I am doing. I think its hard because I don't know what I want to do so looking for a job/internship is horrible because everything sounds interesting and nothing sounds interesting all at the same time! I need something to do that leads me somewhere. And why is it that every fantastic internship I find doesn't take freshman applicants? Like I swear I'm qualified and will work my ass off... I promise I will! So that is my current stressor at the moment because everyone is nagging me about it and yeah. Hmph.
On a sidenote: I changed the layout of my blog! For a while I was determined to learn html and code the whole thing myself (or at least parts of it) but I just wasn't getting anywhere. Every time I did something it moved it one step closer but I still wasn't in love. And I do layout design for a magazine so my OCD was really kicking in every time I looked at the blog so I decided to beat the bullet and just buy one. I know that means I caved but it looks soooo much better now and I honestly could not be any happier. Now I find so my joy looking at the blog and don't cringe or turn away.
Do you guys have any wonderful plans for the summertime because I would love to hear them?