Mother's Day Presents

April 29, 2014

Mother's day is a wonderful day to step back and really look at what your mom does for you.  Even if you don't have a mom, who ever your guardian is or simply someone you look up to, it is a day to appreciate them.  Often times we take for granted what our mom's do for us.  Those car rides to sports practice (let me tell you I played a ton of sports as a kid!), rehearsals, or whatever it is that you do your mom was always there.  Helping you with projects in school or relationship advice she was the go to.  And this is the one day a year we take a step back from all the problems that we have and just thank our mom's for being truly awesome!  

In addition to just telling her how much you love and appreciate her, it couldn't hurt to buy her a little something special! Below I put a few items that I think any mom would love <3


1. A Mug || Whether your mom is obsessed with tea or coffee a mom is always a great gift because it is something she will use all the time.  Travel ones are great too!

2. Tea or coffee || This one goes along with number one but I thought I would make it its own item because it really could be a stand alone item.  Getting K-Cups or Teavana tea is always a great idea for a mother who just can't get enough.  This is a more personalized present because you have to really know what your mom's favorite thing to drink is!

3. Lotion or spa set || I don't think I ever hear the end how dry my mom's skin is.  A great lotion set or spa gift is always a go to.  I mean who doesn't love super rich lotion and good smelling show gels?

4.  Jewelry || Okay so this one is a little more complicated because it really depends on your mom.  Mine only wears necklaces that are fairly dainty.  However, if yours love her statement pieces and arm candy then go for it!  This is actually the one I got my mom for Mother's Day this year, its a gold necklace from Kate Spade that says "Mom said so".  I mean how cute is that!  And she can just turn it around to the other side and its a simple gold circle.  They also make a bangle for it.  (PS.  Kate Spade has some wonderful things for mother's right now that it was really hard to resist some of the them!)

5. A plant || A staple in our family.  There is actually a Mother's Day flower day in my town and every morning we would take my mom to go pick out some new potted flowers for the pots outside our front door and then we would go get breakfast!  I feel like its super cliche to say that mom's like planting but I just feel like they all do (right? no?)

6. A tote || Just a large bag she can carry around for the summer and not worry about it.  My mom absolutely loves the Vera Bradley ones because they are comfy and hold a lot.  She literally takes them everywhere!

7. Stationary || Whether it be monogrammed, floral, or lined this is never a bad option.  A cute little thing to keep near the phone or her purse, or even blank notes for sending thank you's.  

8. A Coupon || I think I might have over done this one when I was a little kid but I was crafty and had no money so yeah.  Giving your mom coupons for a spa day or a dinner are a sure way to melt her heart. While this may seem like very little thought it will probably mean the most to your mom.  Because this one is something that you two can do together and nothing says "Happy Mother's Day" like planning and mother/daughter day!

I wish you all luck with gift shopping and if you have any suggestions of your own I would love to hear them!

xoxo

5 Study Tips for Finals Week

April 28, 2014

Its time to crack down.  With one week left and finals just around the corner, its make or break in the college universe.  I have papers to write and tons of material to catch up on for reading and the stress levels are growing.  You can check out my previous post Dealing With Stress about how to calm yourself before the storm hits.  I think this is very important that during your study time you take breaks and don't get too stressed, check out my post on Motivation during the hell week of finals.  However, for this post, I think I am going to share some of my tricks and methods for studying.  

1. Flashcards || These are only good for some material in some classes.  I would not recommend creating piles and piles of flashcards for every term in every class because you might just go insane.  It is important use flashcards sparingly.  I think they are the best for vocab in a language, dates, and people.  However, you might think they are great for terms in psychology class too.  However, find which few classes you want to use flashcards for and only use them for those classes and not all.  Developing different methods for different classes is also great because it helps you compartmentalize the material and keep it all separate.

2. Study Guides || These have their own ups and downs... While on the one hand they are super beneficial they tend to take a while to make.  Often what I will do is while I am reading material, I take notes in the form of a study guide that way I have something to go back to.  I prefer a two-column note taking method but do whatever works for you!  If you think taking time to make a study guide is a waste for you, then do not feel like you have to.  The key thing about studying is you need to find your own methods that work for and help you get those A's.  For me, I need to rewrite material many times in different forms and be super repetitive about my process.

3. Create a good note taking system || As mentioned above this is what works for you.  I have found over the years that I use a different method depending on what class I am in and how the professor teaches.  If it is a lecture with no Powerpoint and just the professor standing in front of the room talking, I take two column notes.  These are Cornell style with big terms on the left column and notes in the right.  That way you can freely take notes as the teacher talks and just put the big terms they mention of the other side.  I also use this method for taking notes while reading a textbook.  However, if there is a Powerpoint I just follow the outline the teacher set up because they think the headlines and points they selected are important.  Don't feel restricted to follow what they did and always be prepared to add more.

4. Use Mnemonics || These are the fun devices you used to use as kids to help you learn the Great Lakes (HOMES) or the order of operations (Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally).  Continue to use these because they are great ways to recall information.  Often times we study very hard but are unable to recall the information when needed.  Its all in our head we just can't retrieve it.  Creating mnemonics is one way to facilitate this.

5. Practice Tests || One of the most annoying things that happens when you take a test is that you remember studying the exact material and can maybe even locate in your notes in your brain but you just can't form it to answer the question.  By taking practice tests you let yourself become more familiar with retrieving the information that you studied.  It's not so much about the grade you get on the practice test, but the process of taking the test and retrieving what you studied.  Then you can go back and restudy information that you didn't know immediately.  

Study takes time and really isn't something that can just be done the night before.  For me, doing about an hour every day for a few days is much better than 4 hours the night before.  However, everyone is different.  Learn what works for you and stick with it!  Don't get frustrated when one method doesn't work, just try a new one.  While I only mentioned a few options above there are tons of study tips and tricks out there.  I wish you all luck on your studying and finals and summer will come soon:)

Do you have any awesome study tricks?

xoxo

A TV Confession: Scandal 3x18 Finale!!

April 23, 2014

Apologies for this post being a little late in response to that episode but I needed time to process.  I have no words.  That episode left me utterly speechless.  I think I have officially decided that my favorite show of all time is Scandal (and Gossip Girl, oh and The Vampire Diaries).  Okay so I really don't have a favorite but Scandal is freaking fantastic!  I have no idea where to start this post because so many things happened in this episode so I am just going to dive right in.
**SPOILERS AHEAD**

So Cyrus was going to let a bomb blow up a church with thousands of people inside including many government employees.  Like I understand you are sad because your husband just died and now your only purpose in life is to get Fitz re-elected but that is a new low even for you.  Luckily though, Jake saves the day and stops Cyrus from doing the unthinkable.  Fitz then has the church evacuated and as everyone is running out Maya Pope detonates the bomb.  Its not Sally's time to save the day as she uses this opportunity to her advantage and turns it into a campaign ploy.  She ends up getting ahead in the polls to a point where Olivia and Cyrus admit defeat.  WHAT?!

At first I was in shock and depressed that Fitz wouldn't be el Presidente anymore but then it all hit me that it is actually a good thing.  Now he and Olivia can live in Vermont and have the most perfect life together.  Hey, a girl can dream right?  Fitz and Olivia both realize this too and for a moment their future is looking glorious.  That is until Olivia finds it necessary to tell Fitz about Mellie's secret.  Why?  Really Olivia, really?  I was about to through something at my computer screen because there is no way Fitz would leave Mellie once he found out that his own father raped his wife.  Tears.

And just as we are starting to cope with the thought of Fitz and Olivia really never being together Fitz has to prepare a final speech where he tells people to vote for Sally or something like that.  Very soon into the speech we see little Jerry develop a severe nose bleed and then he collapses to the ground.  Now we know that this isn't good and someone (**cough cough Maya Pope**) may or may not have been responsible.  After the family rushes to the hospital it is announced that Jerry died of a supposed seizure.

The first thing that pops into Olivia's mind is that now Fitz will win the election.  The loss of a child will get the people on his side and he will be president for another 4 years.  However, now Fitz learns that Jerry died of a rare bacteria that went missing from a lab that Maya Pope was seen exiting.  Oh dear what is this woman doing?!  Fitz then enlists Papa Pope to get revenge and murder her.  Yikes!  Fitz trusting Papa Pope... somehow this seems like a bad idea.  The news of Jerry being murdered by Mama Pope spreads quickly just like everything seems to in DC.

Olivia goes into a breakdown because everything negative that has ever happened to her friends and family is all her fault (or so she thinks).  Believing that her life is the scandal that now needs to be fix she determines that the only logical solution is to quit and get on the plane that her fathered offered her a while ago.  And so that is exactly what she does.  Olivia Pope quits OPA!!!  If I wasn't screaming and crying before I am now.  Especially because you know who she takes with her on her getaway...? JAKE.  They are going to stand in the sun together.  Please NO!  Like I will do anything to put Fitz and Olivia back together.

And it wouldn't be a Scandal season finale without yet another stab in the heart or back or leg...Rowan, Papa Pope, is put back in charge of B613 and does find Maya Pope.  He tells Fitz not to worry that she was captured and killed.  However, as we see later, she was simply put in the sketchy cellar under the ground that both Huck and Jake were in.  What are they going to do with her?  Somehow the fact that he didn't kill her seems like a bad idea... right?  Also, why did he lie to Fitz about it?

In order to find Maya, Rowan needed help from Harrison, a gladiator at OPA.  After everything happened, Harrison was the only one who figured the whole thing out because some things just still didn't make that much sense.  But the truth comes out:  Maya did not poison Jerry but Rowan did!!!  OMG I did not see this one coming at all!  Papa Pope did promise Olivia to get Fitz the presidency at whatever cost, except he was not allowed to touch a single hair on Fitz's head.  And his reason for killing Jerry, "He took my child, so I took his."  Oh. My. Gahd.  After confessing everything that he did, Rowan holds Harrison at gunpoint and we have no idea what happens to him... Nooooo.  The episode ends with Fitz having a breakdown on the floor of the oval office and Mellie comforting him.  They try to call Olivia for help but she is on a plane flying into the sun with Jake :(

On a sidnote: Quinn and Huck got together.  Am I the only one who doesn't really like the two of them together.  Maybe its just the fact that I really don't like Quinn at all.  She just annoys me like no other.  And then Quinn gets information about Huck's family which she gives him.  They then break up because Huck is extremely mad at her for no other reason than he is Huck and moody.  In the end, Huck does end up going to visit his family which was super adorbale!

So that's all I have for that finale which was one mind blowing revelation after another.  I would love to make predictions about the next season but I just can't.  Nothing I ever think is going to happen actually does.  And the wilder your predictions the better because they will probably come true.  I want to say that I think Olivia and Jake's plane is going to crash but because Shonda Rhimes already did the plane crash thing in Grey's Anatomy I'm not quite sure.  I do think though that Fitz's break down is going to last and he is going to be a complete wreck.

Do you guys have any awesome theories or ideas because I would love to hear them because Scandal anything makes my eyes get all big and I just get really nerdy and excited! haha

xoxo

Easter OOTD

April 21, 2014

I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter weekend and/or Passover.  I went home this weekend because I had a long weekend and it was so nice to be home!  However, it was such a teaser weekend because now I am back at school for what is going to be a hellish three weeks with finals and stuff and then I go back home.  Yes, just a short three weeks until I am done with my freshman year!  

The weather was so nice back home that wearing a dress was a must!  I bought this dress overseas at a store called Pull & Bear which I absolutely love and wish they had in the states.  It is a very thick almost foam/neopreme type feel but it still stretchy enough where it is incredibly comfortable.  The floral pattern is just to die for too.  I paired it with a BaubleBar necklace that I'm not sure you can find anymore.  My Micheal Kors gold watch, Alex & Ani bracelets, and two rings that I can't live without (I am thinking of doing my everyday jewelry post soon!).  And last but not least, my new Madewell boots that I am in love with!

xoxo

Lip Therapy

April 16, 2014

I realize that recently I have been talking about the weather a lot.  Like maybe more than I should but living in Boston has proven to be a interesting weather experience.  As mentioned in an earlier post, a few days ago I wore a sundress.  Today, there is snow in the ground??!!  Yes, that is right, snow.  That cold, wet, white, obnoxious weather substance that is only supposed to happen between the months of December to February/March and when it is below 32 degrees.  Yeah, that snow.  It is APRIL!  Like Sunday is Easter and there is snow on the ground.  I am heading back to Chicago tonight and am experiencing some packing dilemmas so there's that too.

Anyways, that was not the point of this post.  Well it is indirectly.  This insane weather conundrum has stripped all moisture from my body.  My lips are dry, chapped, red, hurt like no other and my skin is bad too.  I have been applying lotion like a crazy person and chapstick every 5 minutes but it simply wasn't working.  I recently took a trip to the wonderful Walgreens to get some intensive lip therapy.  I know this post would probably be better in like December and not April but you can always use some super moisturizing lips goodies...right?


1.  EOS Lip Balm:  This stuff smells great and does okay job for moisture but its more of just a basic lip conditioner.

2. Nivea A Kiss of Milk & Honey: This one also smells delicious and feels really smooth on your lips.

3.  Burt's Bees Ultra Conditioning:  Love the super smooth conditioning of this one and it is definitely better than the other two.  The moisture does stay for a long time.

4. Fresh Sugar Advanced Therapy:  This one has a minty tingle which some may not like.  However, I think this one, along with the Burt's Bees are two of the best ever because I can feel their moisture for a long time, like they don't dry up super quickly.

5.  Vaseline Lip Therapy Original:  This stuff is intense!  I think it might just be basic vaseline but I'm not quite sure.  I apply heave amounts of this at nights and it has worked wonders.  The red chapped corners of my mouth have been slowly disappearing and my lips just feel so much better!!  Love this stuff.

One thing I also suggest is that before you apply any of these gently scrub off the dead skin on your lips.  It may hurt a little but the moisture goodness from these products cannot fully reach your lips until the dead skin is off.  A wet wash cloth works very well or if you want to make a sugar scrub from brown sugar and honey or olive oil that works really well and has additional moisture properties.  Your lips are a very thin layer of skin that we cannot forget about.  Make sure to apply a daily lip balm with sunscreen also.

Hope this helps!  Do you have any secret moisture tricks during this crazy weather changing vortex we are currently in?

xoxo

Summer Plans

April 14, 2014

It's crazy to think that in just a few short weeks I will have finished my freshman year at college!  I know right!  I feel like it was just yesterday that I was writing on here about how nervous I was to enter in to this new phase in my life and now a year has passed.  One thing that comes with college is the realization that you are growing up.  Until now I have always felt like a kid.  I mean I still do most of the time until I realize that I no longer have my mother nagging me (which she still loves to do...but with love! haha) or am under the strict schedules of others.  I live my own live according to the rules I set for myself.

And this is scary.  And by scary I mean absolutely terrifying!  Growing up was something that I always dreamed about doing.  Couldn't wait to get to high school, then college, and now I want time to freeze.  Like we need to slow down because I am 19 finishing my first year in college and I swear yesterday I was awkward middle schooler.  

The idea of getting jobs and learning to be on your own is becoming even more real.  Not only am I stressing right now over finals in the next few months but also the fact that I have zero, nada, absolutely no plans for this summer.  Everyone around me is talking about their great internships, summer jobs, or fabulous international trips they have planned.  And here I am without a clue as to what I am doing.  I think its hard because I don't know what I want to do so looking for a job/internship is horrible because everything sounds interesting and nothing sounds interesting all at the same time!  I need something to do that leads me somewhere.  And why is it that every fantastic internship I find doesn't take freshman applicants?  Like I swear I'm qualified and will work my ass off... I promise I will!  So that is my current stressor at the moment because everyone is nagging me about it and yeah.  Hmph.

On a sidenote:  I changed the layout of my blog!  For a while I was determined to learn html and code the whole thing myself (or at least parts of it) but I just wasn't getting anywhere.  Every time I did something it moved it one step closer but I still wasn't in love. And I do layout design for a magazine so my OCD was really kicking in every time I looked at the blog so I decided to beat the bullet and just buy one.  I know that means I caved but it looks soooo much better now and I honestly could not be any happier.  Now I find so my joy looking at the blog and don't cringe or turn away.  

Do you guys have any wonderful plans for the summertime because I would love to hear them?

xoxo

Pastel Love

April 13, 2014

So the weather is finally beautiful!  Literally I was the happiest I have been in a while yesterday simply because I could not get enough of the sunshine and 65degrees.  You cannot be unhappy when is gorgeous outside.  I went on walks with my friends to go get coffee and sit in a park for awhile.  And then, some relatives picked me up and we went to someone's house for dinner.  They happened to live on a lake so we chilled outside for a bit and it was literally unbelievably beautiful!  I honestly could not have asked for a better Saturday.  

As the weather is getting nicer the warmer springier colors are coming out as well as dresses and shorts!  Yesterday I wore a purple and light blue tribal print dress, a mint colored polo shirt over it, a braided belt, a chunky necklace from my fave Bauble Bar, and white converse!  Below is a modified (but very similar version) of what I wore!  Its time to break out the pastels and the all the summery items because its getting warm outside!!  Literally, tomorrow is supposed to be 75 and you cannot wipe this huge grin off my face if you tried.



What have you guys been doing since the weather has been oh-so-delightful?  Any cute outfits?

xoxo

Let it Go

April 11, 2014

So as mentioned earlier I have some issues letting things go.  I can remember little things people have done to things I regret all the way back to when I was kid.  Now I am not quite sure whether that is good or bad (I'm going to go with bad) but it is a slight problem.  I wish I could use this memory on tests and in school but sadly it doesn't carry over.  This year in college has been a real test to my holding grudges ability and I am learning that you have to pick and chose which events you want to consume you and which you want to simply let go.  There are many things that while they may hurt you at the time in a few days they won't mean a thing.  Those are the scenarios that you should simply toss away and not worry about because if you let every little thing consume you it will only be detrimental.  

In honor of me learning to move on, I thought I would share with some of you my favorite "Let It Go" in Frozen covers.  I honestly cannot get enough of them and I know this is a little late but I am still so obsessed.  So I hope you enjoy some quality sounds.


Because who doesn't love a good mashup of two of my current addictions?!  



Because its almost finals time and this version just makes me laugh hysterically



Literally I cannot get over this version because that girl is incredible and I want to be her!!  There is also a really cute behind the scenes video that is awesome!



Because we are probably all sick of this song and agree with this father...but at the same time I don't think it will ever get old! haha

Okay I think I'm done but if you haven't quite satisfied your frozen fix become best friends with YouTube because the parodies and covers are endless on there!

xoxo



TMI Tag

April 10, 2014

Basically this tag just asks 50 random personal questions that you probably wouldn't ever think to ask but you might be interested in!  I love tag videos and posts so I thought I would do this one.  Hope you enjoy :)

1: What are you wearing? Lulu Lemon leggings, a basic t shirt, and a sweatshirt
2: Ever been in love? Nope
3: Ever had a terrible breakup? Nope
4: How tall are you? 5'10.5
5: How much do you weigh? about 130
6: Any tattoos? Nope but I really want some
7: Any piercings? Just my ears
8: OTP? Damon and Elena for life!!  Also, Olivia and Fitz.
9: Favorite show? Scandal!!!  But you all know I love my TV and can't actually pick just one favorite so The Vampire Diaries, Pretty Little Liars, and I could easily go on but I'll spare you.
10: Favorite bands? Hmmm... I don't really like bands, I just kind of listen to whatever but I have been addicted to Luke Bryan lately.
11: Something you miss? My puppy!
12: Favorite song? Drink a Beer by Luke Bryan
13: How old are you? 19
14: Zodiac sign? Virgo, my birthday is September 17
15: Quality you look for in a partner? Humor and super down to earth
16: Favorite Quote? You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.
17: Favorite actor? I honestly don't think I have a favorite but I really like Matt Bomer.
18: Favorite color? Green
19: Loud music or soft? Depends on my mood but usually soft
20: Where do you go when you’re sad? My bed, nothing beats curling up in a blanket with a good show.
21: How long does it take you to shower?  5-10 minutes
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Usually about 30-45 minutes but I can get ready in like 10.
23: Ever been in a physical fight? Nope
24: Turn on? Tall!  
25: Turn off? Cockiness
26: The reason I started blogging? Because I always wanted to and starting college was a perfect excuse!
27: Fears? People knowing my fears
28: Last thing that made you cry? A death
29: Last time you said you loved someone? My dad on the phone a few hours ago.
30: Meaning behind your blogger name? Pretty self explanatory that one
31: Last book you read? The Slammed series!  I highly recommend it for a light read
32: The book you’re currently reading?  Haven't started anything new yet.
33: Last show you watched? Chicago Fire
34: Last person you talked to? My friend Catherine
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? My mom
36: Favorite food? Pasta anything!
37: Place you want to visit? Australia!!
38: Last place you were? Like exotic place? Dubai
39: Do you have a crush? Not really
40: Last time you kissed someone? A while ago
41: Last time you were insulted? Uhmm... I don't know
42: Favorite flavor of sweet? CHOCOLATE!
43: What instruments do you play? In my life I have played the french horn, oboe, and percussion but then I quit because I finally realized that I was musically challenged
44: Favorite piece of jewelry? My knot ring
45: Last sport you played? Volleyball
46: Last song you sang? Billy Carrington Hey Girl
47: Favorite chat up line? Umm.. does this mean like funniest? Are you a camera? Because every time I look at you I smile -- because honestly WTF who thinks of these!
48: Have you ever used it? Nope!
49: Last time you hung out with anyone? Friends a few hours ago
50: Who should answer these questions next? All of y'all!

Hope it wasn't too long!  Haha

xoxo

A TV Confession {Twisted Season 1 Finale}

April 9, 2014

So I have very mixed feelings about this show.  I still cannot decide whether or not I like it but for some reason I can't stop watching it.  

Honestly, all of the characters really annoy the shit out of me.  Jo drives me up the wall crazy because her personality is so dry and I just can't watch her for 47 minutes (or however long an episode without commercials is).  Also, am I the only one who thinks Danny is not attractive at all.  Like actually the furthest thing from attractive.  His long hair desperately needs to be washed and cut.  Oh and that creepy moustache thing has to go!  And I mean like 5 minutes ago gone.  Also, he killed someone so that's kind of a turn off.  For some reason though I did like him in Victorious so I don't know what has changed but I just think he is dirty and creepy.  The only character I actually like is Lacey but even she has her moments.

The one good thing that this show has going for it is the plot.  OMG is this plot line great!  It has me so sucked in that I am able to look past all of the character flaws just to keep watching it.  **Spoilers ahead**  Okay let's start small and work our way to the big reveals.

First the Whitney plot line.  She kind of came in the middle of the season and has already made her mark.  She kissed Lacey which I kind of liked.  It a little diversity into the pretty suburban town.  Also, I think it made Lacey's character a whole lot more interesting because she started questioning her own interests etc.  In the last episode we find out that Whitney and her dad have some sort of ulterior motives in coming close with the Desais.  It makes me question the whole Jack and Mrs. Desai relationship too.  Did he really try to kill Vikram when he first died?  Why did he move Vikram's body?  What are his motives with forming a relationship with the Desai's?  Did he know about the money?  What is the story behind Whitney and her mom?  Oh and Charlie was working with them before he went rogue...shit just got real!

Moving onto to Charlie... he is interesting.  Also, not very attractive who needs some shampoo to wash that greasy hair mop on his head.  I swear showers are super easy boys!  Any who, I found some parts of the Charlie plot line fairly predictable and other were woah.  I called Charlie knowing Danny in jail from a mile a way and that was the whole reason he was going for Jo.  Charlie becoming obsessed and crazy and holding Jo hostage was a completely different story.  Then we find out that Charlie is actually Aunt Tara's (the woman Danny supposedly killed but it was actually Vikram who made Danny take the blame) child.  Holy shit this was a shocker!  Yet totally believable and I love this story line.  They could have done something with it.

But wait, it doesn't end there...nope Charlie is actually not Aunt Tara's child but actually Tess's child!!!!! Like what the actual fahk.  Okay 1) I don't think I can buy into this because Charlie doesn't look like Tess at all and 2) incest.  Charlie and Jo were a thing for a while so that kind of puts a kink in Charlie's love confession.  I guess that's why they call the show Twisted huh?!  

Speaking of love... Danny also confessed his love for Jo this week.  Uhm what?  I honestly do not understand this at all.  Literally last week you were in love with Lacey and now its all about Jo.  Hmmmm... I think the writers are just trying to create a love triangle like other major shows have.  Also, what do these people see in Jo?  To mean she a whiny child who just annoys the crap out of me!  

Okay soooo I think that is all that I need to talk about in this episode because I can't think of anything else.  But I must say, this episode did boost some love for Twisted unlike some in the past.  I don't think there will be a next season for the show but you never know.  I still maintain that ABC Family was wrong it cancelling The Lying Game because that show was FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC and I will forever be sad about it.  I also miss Jane By Design which I thought was a seriously underrated show as well.  You know what, ABC Family doesn have some seriously underrated shows and some that show probably just go off the air (like how in the world did Secret Life last as long as it did?!)  

Now that I have gone on a major tangent, do you all watch Twisted?  What are your thoughts about everything?

xoxo

Grieving

April 8, 2014

So I know that my last few posts on here have been of a sadder topic but that's life right.  And I told myself that I would blog my life experiences this year so that is what I am doing.  You can't really control what happens to you but you have to take it and go with it.  It's kind of that unexpectedness that I so much love because it adds to the mystery and adventure.  However, there are times when the curve ball is terrible and traumatic causing a serious break in your daily norm.  A death.  Yup that will definitely do the trick.

At first I was in shock when I found out that a very close friend from middle school passed away the other day.  I didn't want to believe it.  I couldn't believe it.  But this was something I had to believe because in their right mind would make something like this up.  The boy that died was honestly one of the nicest, sweetest (I could literally keep going for a while) people I think I have ever met.  In middle school he was really shy and kept to himself, kind of nerdy, but was always there for your if you needed him.  In fact, he gave one of the speeches at out 8th grade graduation.

And although we grew apart in high school we still smiled to each other and had a few classes together.  It still isn't real that he won't be alive to experience some of the same life events that I and our peers will.  He won't get to turn 21 or graduate from college.  He won't find that significant other and start a family.  There are so many things that I will get to do, that a person (who deserves to do them more than anyone) won't be able to do.  Now I debated mentioning aspects of his passing because he committed suicide (well it is not fully known but that is most likely assumed.)

If you had told me sitting in my 8th grade English class (a class we were both in together) that this boy was unhappy and depressed I would have never believed you.  There is no way.  But clearly there was, clearly he was hiding so much behind his contagious smile.  This is why I felt as though I had to include the fact that his death was a suicide because I want everyone to really look at the people around you.  Do just glance over and say yeah no their definitely happy because maybe they aren't.  There are probably more unhappy and depressed people that you are close with than you think.  Take a minute and ask everyone how they are doing.  Ask them how their day was.  Tell them how important they mean to you.  These little acts can be just enough to get someone through the day, and maybe even lead them to open up and talk to you.  You never know what people are going through around you so always be cautious.  Something you say or do, don't say or don't do, or even you're actions can all have serious consequences both good and bad.  

And if you are ever feeling depressed and need someone to talk to then please do.  I am here if you need anything and I'm sure your friends, family, teachers, etc. would all love to here from you.  And if it gets really bad that suicide becomes a possibility please tell someone or call a suicide hotline.  I can promise you that life will get better.

xoxo

Making Mends

April 2, 2014

So I am the first one to admit that I hold grudges.  Like for a long time.  It really isn't good because it makes me lose a lot of friends because I can never simply forget things people do.  In my mind people don't really change all that often and the poor actions they make show their true colors and feelings.  I know that is the complete wrong attitude and I am trying to change.

Recent events have forced me to question these ideals I have.  So I got in a major fight with some of my friends about a month ago and haven't talked to them since.  They messed up and have completely ignored the situation.  I am not quite sure why all of this happened but I guess it is for the best.  Because why would I want to be friends with people who can hurt people so easily?  But then again, they were my best friends for practically all of my first year here at college.  So what do I do?

It has been a tug and pull between many options.  Its hard to go back to the friendships that we once had but we were such good friends that I don't want to lose that.  But at the same time I think it is already lost.  So then it comes time for moving on.  But how can you move on when the other people haven't even acknowledged that anything was wrong?  And then every time you open your dorm their door is staring back at you and you are reminded all over again of what happened.

So I think I am going to try to turn over a new leaf and make mends with people.  I don't have to completely return to the old relationships but smoothing things over is a start.  Holding grudges has only hurt me in the past so I think it is time that I change my ways and forget some of my old grudges.  Hopefully this will keep me more positive and less guarded in the future too.

How do you guys handle drama or conflict?  Are you quick to forgive and forget or do you hold grudges like me?
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